a tribute to some1 special...

shes not sum1 i think about through the day.
nor is she some1 i completely ignore.
she is is someone i have secretly admired for a very long time...say 20 years..
she is not some1 who u can call the hip and happening "babe"...
she is not some1 whom u will call de nerd...
she is the newest entrant into the TATA MOTORS PVT LTD family...
...she is my life...she is my breath....she is my death...she is my strength....she is my weakness....she is my sister....

over the past few years....i have seen her going through a transition...sumthing that did her a world of good. u may go around saying that i must be the most loving brother daylight has seen...
ur very very verrrrrrrry wrong....i hate her...she snatchin away my spotlight!!! she always managed to do better than me...in every field but one..... DRIVING!! but im sure she'll be a better one someday or the other. 20 years with her have been hell. we've had wars! for the first few years i have been on the recieving end of her mammoth hands....till i grew in size n she realized dat hittin me wont be a very good idea....
we fought for silly reasons....but never locked each other in the bathroom.... but still managed 2 drive our parents crazy....
i am not shy to admit dat we haven really had our coochie-coo brotherly-sisterly times.... it still pisses me off when she tries to cuddle me as though im a friggin toy!! many people have told me that we should be like friends....like all other siblings... i always wanted 2 give them a reality check.... WE ALREADY ARE LIKE "OTHER SIBLINGS" ..... unless and until the "other siblings" are martians or from pluto or sumthin....
i have never shared stuff with her....never told her my serets.... never told her stuff dat i would like to keep away from mom.... for the simple reason that..... shes this GANDHIAN prodigy!! shes probably heard "main jo bhi kahoonga sach kahoonga...sach ke siva kuch nahi kahoonga" wala dialogue a milion time when she was in my mothers womb....
i mentioned the word prodigy.... dats coz right since school she has excelled.... every award function my sister had this bagfull of certificates... elocution....extempore... etc etc.... the last certificate i got was er.......ummmmmmmm.........cant remember....

academics...she was the boss..... i wasnt even remotely close to her standards...
my parents say dat i have more brains than her....they maybe right... but have never approved of it...coz sumwhr down the line, it downgrades her achievements...

she is this heart of gold...has cared for me in all my horrible times....has prayed for me.... n im sure i haven reciprocated in anyway.... which i knw is very wrong.... for the same reason.... i have always wanted 2 apologize... but never managed 2 put it in words.... trust me... it took me a lot of guts 2 type all this....
im sorry if i have hurt you....but i do love you.... more than anything in this world.... .....yeah but that duznt mean dat ill start sharin my stuff with u....so dont start dreamin abt me offerin u chocolates...i still gobble it up without sharing....

id like to end this post with a biiiiiiiiiiiiig CONGO for gettin ur job....make us proud...im sure u will.....but still...for the heck of it....

with luv...
raghav....